Age Safari

I know nothing about getting old and less about the wisdom that supposedly accompanies it. I was naive enough to think that age and grace are compatible – that growing old means being comfortable with it. I was informed of my ignorance by one seasoned relative some years ago that just because you get older doesn’t mean you’re okay with it.

If it’s one thing young people are deficient in, it’s knowledge of how age affects life. And though my students wouldn’t call me young, I know better than to claim any rights to the title Veteran. I’m hardly an experienced member of this planet. Nevertheless, by observation I’m realizing that mortality is ever present and yet terribly obscure to those enraptured by youth.

Age and its unavoidably unpredictable progression is observable, entertaining and revealing but it’s lessons aren’t easily translated. If they were, more marriages would succeed I think and less time would be spent at the police station bailing out underage pleasure seekers. There’s something about age that can move an athlete from novice to professional, from hedonist to philanthropist and/or from isolationist to team player.

The problem with age is not a problem at all save for the aches, weight, diminished reflexes, etc. Are you kidding? Those sound like terrible life inhibitors. And they are but the older folks told and tell me that despite the physical detriments, age affords wisdom to those who pursue it as they age. Age is a bit sterile after the fanfare of puberty. But if I could tell the Norman of 16 years ago anything it might be that, “the aging is less like a field trip to the zoo and more like a safari”. It’s getting out on the land in a jeep with a native guide who has a rifle but can’t guarantee safety. On one hand you could end up being dinner but put simply, if you’re going to age anyway, you may as well get in the jeep.

Immunity

How many diseases are there that strike fear in our hearts because either there is no vaccination to prevent them or said vaccine is scarce? Immunity has a positive connotation and I don’t normally couple the word with excitement. Raise your hand if you want to be immune to emotions that produce exhilaration – Excitement Immunity.

Sometimes I feel that somewhere along the line I lost my excitement or at least buried it creating a dormancy that has been difficult to surmount. What excitement? I’m talking about the “smiling, hip-hop hooray, text messaging everybody I know” type of excitement that I had when I was getting ready for my fourth grade role as the cowardly lion in the school’s production of the Wizard of Oz in 1984-85.

There’s a coarse cynicism that that has been canonized by modern culture and I can clearly see how it ambushed me and other men. Opportunities too stellar for words occur on the court, at the job and in ways that can change our lives permanently but I’ve seen myself in my own mind as people ask, “Aren’t you excited?” There’s a coolness that has replaced the boy like exuberance that keeps kids up late on Christmas Eve. It’s as if I learned to be embarrassed by excitement – that it was a sign of immaturity and naivety. I couldn’t have been more errant. If I learned one thing from playing and not playing basketball it is that excitement propels you. It means you still possess hope and the willingness to participate in meaningful activity. It means you’re alive. The Pointer Sisters once sang that they were so excited they just couldn’t hide it and I’ve become good at the hiding part. But I repent today, for to regain my zeal is to release myself to see opportunity as divine, a gift which deserves nothing less than my utmost excitement.

Friday Light

It seems like I’ve always commuted to work, sometimes as much as an hour door-to-door. Right now it’s about 35 minutes from Rancho Cucamonga to Riverside. I travel against traffic so I don’t have a problem with morning gridlock. But when I drove with the grain, Fridays usually seemed like an easier drive. People take days off on Friday’s I guess and it frees up the highways.

And so the end of the work week for most starts with a less than maniacally paced drive to the grind. The excitement about Friday is a social constant in California where I’ve grown up. “Is it Friday yet? Thank God it’s Friday.” We say that every week knowing full well that Saturday is coming too. Saturday looms with all of its To Dos. Then perhaps there’s rest on Sunday if we don’t find a way to turn it into a weekday with work.

Could people learn to love the other days of the week more if they found the days more fulfilling? I’m all for Fridays but It would be tough to work one more day if Monday is to Friday as Lord Voldemort is to Harry or as Debo is to Craig and Smokey pictured above. If you hate what you’re doing, gut it out for a temporary season or toughen up. Find out what it is you find fulfilling (serving others, designing things, mentoring young people, composing music, etc.) . All the Fridays in the world won’t cure your work week blues. Maybe we can make everyday feel like Friday.

The Bush League Antidote

I used to laugh every time I heard, “That’s Bush League.” I don’t even know what I thought that phrase meant but thanks to the advent of the search engine, my ignorance has been abated. Bush league means novice, unprofessional or amateurish. Once upon a time there were minor league baseball teams, many of whom played their games in ballparks that were anything but major league caliber. They often had bushes aligning the perimeter and were aptly dubbed, “Bush League Baseball.”

So enter the Bush League mindset of the high school athlete that longs for a coach’s interference. The range of credible excuses for not meeting a coach’s expectations include but are not limited to:

  • I forgot my athletic clothes at home
  • I have more important obligations
  • I wasn’t THAT late
  • I CAN’T get a physical exam until at least a week from now
  • My parents say I can’t stay after school
  • I’m sore, cramping or hurt so much more than the others that I can’t run a timed mile today
  • My grades are better than what the teachers say. They will be different after all my work is recorded.

That’s Bush League bro. It’s amateurish and if there’s an ounce of humility in any of us we know that we all still find it convenient to proliferate the smoke and mirrors act that is pardoning oneself from what is expected of our team members. But regarding the youngsters, we coaches have to decide to train them from Bush to Major leagues or leave them prepped for stalled maturation. Sports is supposed to teach lessons not produce repetitive cycles indicative of a lifetime of entitlement and coddling. I’m down with Bush League but only if it’s the path and not the destination.

Transparent Apprehension

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Suppose that for one day you had to answer truthfully any question that anyone asked you. Up the stakes and say that the person giving you the third degree is  younger than you, a subordinate like an employee, a player on your team, student or even your own child. Now consider the line of questioning. “Have you ever cheated on a girlfriend/boyfriend? When did you lose your virginity? Do you harbor hate that could cause you to harm someone?” Truth be told, aren’t  we afraid to answer the questions because of what people would think of our answers?

The bravest thing I’ve ever done (and the list is short) is to abandon the fear of being transparent. By mistake I’ve earned people’s trust by telling them anything they want to know. I don’t think it’s my answers to questions that have  mattered as much as the fact that I’ve been willing to abandon my right to preserving a false self. I’m sure I’m just as superficial as anyone but seriously, there’s a currency that spends more readily than any I’ve ever used to buy tangible goods. And it is Transparency.

There’s a prim and proper etiquette that we mind in this world and none of my hypotheses on this are scientific. Do they need to be? How different can I really be from most people. I have a past riddled with skirmishes that pitted me against pretense. Pretense almost always won but when a kid or someone you mentor feels free to ask you questions, you can best believe they are actively listening now. They’re provoked by your honesty to participate in meaningful discussion – the kind that leads to people inspecting their own lives. Critics of this line of thinking say, “Show and don’t tell your story. There is such a thing as too much information (TMI).” I say tell the show of your story as real as you can as honestly as you can and your reputation will never need another a pretentious face lift.

Heavy Freight Batons

They should do a top ten list of things you should and should not pass down to your kids, grandchildren, nieces/nephews and so forth. I can’t wait so, if I may, here’s a list of the things I don’t want to bequeath unto my descendants:

  1. My tardy addiction
  2. My irregular flossing pattern
  3. The “I don’t cook” quality
  4. Loose financial management
  5. (regrettably) Occasional Use the “N” Word
  6. Tendency to hold a scorecard of wrongs
  7. Propensity for writing people off who fail to show compassion
  8. Struggle to concentrate on one thing at a time
  9. Procrastination
  10. Cowardly yellow when it comes to putting faith in action

That’s the bad ten – the batons I’d just as soon keep out of the family relay if you can dig what I’m saying. It took years to ignore good advice, cultivate unproductive character traits and master them. Conversely, the likes of my mother, grandparents and a host of admirable elders have relinquished the stick in tremendously flawless form. In Track-and-Field the pass and what’s being passed bear indescribable significance. I’m about ready to run my leg but here’s what’s in the exchange:

  1. Loyalty
  2. No excuses (courtesy of my grandmothers who’ve bravely battled cancer, abandonment and suffered the deaths of their own children)
  3. Praise is an uncomfortable garmenty like my wife’s sweater that’s too small and I just want to hurry up and take it off
  4. Realization that none of us are above both giving and receiving
  5. No strings attached is the only way to give and receive
  6. God is THE  non-negotiable and perennial sovereign beyond human affairs. He is neither trivial nor inconsequential
  7. Absolute control over an adult is mythical but patience begets influence
  8. A smile like mom’s at the sound of your son/daughter’s voice
  9. No harm in an early start to a long day
  10. The true you always and if they cringe at the sight, it’s a great conversation starter

I never really thought of life as a relay but if the analogy holds, I don’t know what’s more vital, the hand-off or the materials from which the baton was made. There’s me and then there are the legs that follow. The baton is about all I control.

Find Your Inner Salmon

Salmon jumping . Sept 04 003 _239Besides tasting great, the Alaskan Salmon provides a metaphor that I hope will make sense. I often don’t make sense when I reach for and invent analogies. Nevertheless, the Alaskan Salmon spend 1-3 years in preparation for a journey out to sea with a group of like-minded swimmers. They then spend 1-8 years in sea water before readjusting their bodies to fresh water and swimming upstream to spawn and lay eggs. The final swim is against rushing rapids and up water falls as they relentlessly seek the waters in which they were born. And when they arrive, if they’re not eaten by wild animals or caught by fishermen, they lay their eggs and die within 1-2 weeks. So I guess every Salmon is an orphan.

There are two characteristics I long to develop continually and both are akin to the heart of the Alaskan Salmon. Resilience is one and commitment the other. Resilience is the fight to respond to perpetual adversity, not just a one-time setback. It’s the quality that can only be forged by multiple failure and the minute we choose to fold our hand, resilience cannot be realized. The Salmon is threatened by water at varied amounts of pressure per square inch. There is no reason why these fish should be able to complete their journeys but they refuse to buckle.

Commitment is the resolve to complete what has been started based on a healthy perception of what is at stake. I’ve heard people universalize commitment as if we must finish every single thing we start. But if that were true we’d see a lot more failed marriages because people too afraid to break off engagements decided to finish. Or, to use myself as an example, I would have never stopped crying about basketball aspirations and endlessly pursued it to no avail. The reality I’m learning is that Salmon-like commitment means you understand why you’re committed.

When you’re called to be something, to do something, to change something the interruptions will be profuse. That’s the nature of the stream you’re swimming against. That’s why we need resilience. But it’s knowing why we’re swimming opposite the majority of people that sustains a proper commitment. There is a time to cease one action and rejoin the swim against the assimilated and the communities that just do the drill. Compromising self, family, faith, etc. are unacceptable commitments and that breed the opposite of resilience. If you read this post, maybe you and I can help one another find our inner Salmon.